Not feeling special because boys are from Mars and I'm from Venus.

Do you ever get the feeling that you're not special for that someone you love? I know I do. I feel that lately. I don't want to complain or anything as I'm with him only a month and 2 weeks (yes, I count) but I am so sad its ridiculous.. I'm not saying hes a bad boyfriend. Hes a great boyfriend. He can make me as happy as a child getting the toy they wanted for Christmas. And I really hope he did that more. I don't know if he knows that seeing his face even for 5 minutes, holding his hand or even getting a kiss makes me the happiest person in the world..

What's with boys not liking to share their feelings? I know a ton of boys who are just like that. I know boys are from Mars and girls are from Venus blah blah blah.. I understand hes not a girl and he doesn't like to share his feelings and all.. I am scared to talk to him. I don't know how boys work. No girl knows I think.. I'm scared that if I talk to him I will hurt his feelings in some way. I don't know. I just feel like he isn't trying. Like he got used to me trying all the time and that suits him so he doesn't do anything. I don't know maybe I'm wrong but that's what I feel right now.

I don't know how to deal with my feelings. I am emotionally unstable.. I can admit that. If my boyfriend doesn't text me for a day I get paranoid that I did something wrong and that he will leave. Even though I perfectly know I did nothing wrong and he won't leave. My stupid head is making me crazy and scared. I look for help in friends. They give me advice but I can never use it. I'm too scared. I will always put his feelings before mine no matter what. Even if that will hurt me and make me cry i will always care more about him than I care about myself. 

Is it wrong? Is it right? I don't know anymore. I hope he'll realize I'm sad.