Shit mood.

I hate evenings. Every evening I sit in my room before going to sleep and I overthink about everything. Which then of course results in me having a shit mood because of nothing really.
Today was a fucking brilliant day. I loved it. I was shopping, which always makes me happy. But then I went to my room and everything started to be shit.
Im writing from my phone which is shit because my hands hurt.
I found myself today evening on Facebook, having a shit mood and wanting to talk to someone just to take my mind off it. But I realised I have noone to talk too. By that I mean really close people. I panicked, well I wouldnt call that panic, and closed my laptops with plans to go to sleep. Turned off the light and all. A lot of people think that youre supposed to be relaxed and all that..Bullshit! Darkness gets you. It is filled with thoughts, usually bad, who are trying to get into your head. I hate when Im in that mood..

You know when youre sad or something and your boyfriend doesnt text you for the whole day? When youre in an ok mood its grand. But when youre sad, you need him more than anyone else and it just makes your bad mood worse. Its not his fault of course. Its just me not being able to handle him not being there when I need him. Hes always there for me. Always. The worst thing is that when I overthink and he doesnt text me or something, I start overthinking about him. Thinking Im not good enough for him and that hell leave even though I perfectly know he wont. And I am good enough. I hope.

Ahh all the emotions. Just please Fuck off.