I consider myself a creative person sometimes. I draw, I make stuff, I write songs and all that jazz. However recently, my creativity has just gone away and doesn't really fancy to come back to me. First boys leave me, then creativity..damnit.. Naah I'm kidding. Of course I have accepted the fact I'm single. Of course..
Coming back to creativity! It's summer time and for me it meant all different, crazy adventures, a lot of creative content from me and just fun everyday! Ha ha ha. No. What it actually turned out to be is me sitting in front of my laptop everyday, thinking of doing something creative but having no ideas. Then I think for so long about what I could do that it's usually 11pm and I "go to sleep" while still chatting on my phone. Life is so unfair. Well it's mostly my fault but who would admit to that. Uhmm.. And also adding to that, I get shouted at by my parents for not doing anything. Well excuse me parents, it's not my fault you are not in my head and don't see my super amazing creativity plans. If I want to draw something, sure I can but I never know what to draw. Want to write a song? There, have a fucking great melody but no lyrics to go with it. Want to write? That's a good thing to do with your time but wait..you have no idea what you'll write about? Well, shit.
It annoys the shit out of me. When you finally want to get your ass up and actually do something with your life, your brain is a complete fart and you do nothing instead, crying about how your life has no meaning :).
I used to make YouTube videos as well. My last proper vlog video was uploaded 2 months ago. And so many cool things have happened since then and I could talk about them in a video but I just think to myself- why bother? Nobody probably watches them anyway and why should I make something that nobody gives a fuck about. (I'll still be making videos though. Soon. I think xD)
Well time to think about some creativity again.
Byee <3
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