Well.. Hello there.
Haven't written here in a while. I wanted to but I didn't really have the inspiration and motivation to do it. Now that I'm bored and not tired, I decided to write something.
I have been in Poland for holidays! I don't really like to go to Poland that much, to be honest. Yeah yeah, I shouldn't say that, I have family there, be patriotic Joanna! I have lost my patriotism a long time ago. Seeing family and friends was fine but I just hate everyone else in Poland.. However the highlight of my holidays was the fact I went to Lodz. It's another city in Poland which is beautiful. I got to go to one of the biggest (if not the biggest) shopping centres in Poland and I also got to see a modelling competition and a few people from xfactor and the voice of Poland. That was the highlight. I was very happy for these 4 days.
The rest of my holidays isn't that interesting to be honest so I won't bore you alright?
When I came back to Ireland I was so glad to be back. I treat Ireland as my new home now. I feel like I have been born here and lived here forever. I sometimes wonder what would I do right now if I didn't move to Ireland.
I think about my future a lot. Too much even. I should just live the life and go with the flow but to be honest I'm being completely the opposite.. I overthink every single detail of my life and get worried for no reason. There's so much pressure but at the same time there's no pressure at all. Some people tell you to get on with your life and have a plan and others tell you to just not worry about it as everything turns right at the end. Adult life is such a mess.. I don't consider myself as an extreme adult just because I'm 18. I still have the heart of a 10 year old. All this adult life frustrates me. Get to a good college, maybe have a job, what do you want to do with your life, oh do you like anyone at the moment? All these thing are pinning me down to the ground and I need space. When I think about college I think how much of a fail I am because I don't know what profession do I want to take up in college. When I think about a job I think about the 20 CVs I have sent out and I only got an interview from one of them and I'm not even sure if I'll get it. Planning my life is enjoyable but really hard as you can't really plan your life. You have all these fantasies and plans but you know that to get them you need to take little steps. That's frustrating. Also boyfriends. I know I have time to find a faithful one but let's face it.. Everyone gets lonely sometimes and they would like a cuddle or a kiss from a boyfriend/girlfriend..
All these things make me go mental sometimes. I'm glad I have supportive friends and parents so I won't go completely crazy.
Oh life. What have you got for me tomorrow?
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