Dear November: The one where love is blind.

Dear November.

I'm trying to spend my days more active now. Not because I'm trying to get healthy or fit or to just not stay at home all day but because I need to get over a big part of my life that left recently. 

Love is the most beautiful thing in the world. For me anyway. It comes, it goes. For me it unfortunately went too quickly. It's funny how "getting over someone" is a thing. We make these plans for ourselves to not cry at night and hoping over time it will all go away. But it never does, does it? Love is forever, it never goes away. The intensity of it just flows away but there's always going to be this little spark when you see him or her just walking down the street or posting a new picture on instagram. No matter how long it has been after a breakup, you'll find yourself just remembering the good times or the bad, even for two seconds.

Break-up aftermaths are filled with anger,sadness and tears and sentences like "Oh he was shit anyway", "He did this and that wrong" blah blah blah. However after a while the anger wears off and you start to remember the good times. Even though you're hurt inside you are able to crack a smile. It's all just a roller-coaster of emotions. Eventually it stops and you get off the ride.

Personally I feel better during the day. I go out, forget about it all and get on with my life. Evenings on the other hand are very hard. I'm the kind of person that thinks about everything during the evening. Usually it ends up in me crying because loneliness is slowly but surely getting to me. At least I have friends who are willing to occupy me with conversations. They are able to make me crack a smile during my evening of tears.

Do I regret that relationship? Not at all. It was the best I ever had. Yes we had ups and downs and there were some personal traits that we didn't like about each other but that's just how life works. It ended yes, but I'm thankful for every second of it no matter how bad I feel right now as it's all still quite fresh for me. I'm trying to be optimistic and move on. 

If you are wondering how to get over a break-up the answer is simply: you don't. (Also chocolate helps.)

Sorry this was a bit of a downer but see you on the next one lovelies xx